bring in the noise

1.Song playing at the moment? - the song of raindrops falling on the roof
2.One reason for living? - bringing goodness to the world [naks!]
3.Do u think your partner is sexy? - i don't have a partner right now. wah. haha
4.Ever donated blood? - never
5.Fav color? - lavender
6.Accessories you usually wear? - earrings, watch, bracelet, necklace [not anymore, though. earrings and a watch nalang. haha]
7.One song to describe a heartbreak in the past? - smile by tamia
8.Last place you went? - rizal sports commission [huh?]
9.Last person who disappointed you? - cuz dear
10.The most boring sport? - i don't really know
11.Ever had a baby? - never, man.
12.The funniest movie you watched in the past week? - i didn't watch anything this week
13.The most romantic gift? - love [naks!]
14.Sang on stage before? - of course
16.Struck by lightning before? - never
17.Danced with your loved one before? - yea
18.Ever wished you could turn back time? - a few times before
19.What would you do if you woke up one day to find yourself to be someone from the opposite sex? - freak out muna, then breathe hahaÜ
20.One song that's meaningful to you? - spend my life with you- tamia and eric benet
21.Last person you met? - florence
22.What will you be doing tomorrow? - dancing
23.Who's your favorite F4 member? - vanness wu Ü
24.One thing you totally regretted doing? - basta.
26.What was the last game you played on the computer? - spider solitaire
27.Someone who means a lot to you at the moment? - secret
28.The color of your mobile phone? - blue and white
29. Do you hate someone at the moment? - haha yes
30. What do you wish to happen now? - haaay...

ako? makata?

1. Pinakagusto mong tawag sayo?= jai, jaims, jaimie

2. Latest addiction?= training.Ü

3. Pinakagusto mong gawin?= magperform. sumayaw, kumanta, umakting. san ka pa?

4. Ano ang mga leisure plans mo within this year?= wala pa naman sa ngayon. sana'y maupad muna ang aking mga ninanais bago ako makakilos ng malaya.

5. Meron ka bang crush ngayon?= naman.

6. Food na gusto mong kainin ngayon?= chicken caesar salad ng kfc [sarap...]

7. Kalokohang ginawa ngayong linggo?= nagpalipat-lipat ng inaasikaso at iniisip na obligasyon. patay na.

8. Last Song Syndrome (LSS) mo ngayon?= i don't wanna know ni mario winans

9. Unforgettable teacher / prof?= si binibining lorlina pamintuan. hay buhay.

10. Fave street food?= fishballs!!!Ü

11.fave childhood game?= patintero, agawan base, or pepsi-7up

12.Natatandaan mo pa ba ang panaginip mo kagabi?= nalulungkot akong sabihing hindi ako nanaginip kagabi.

13.Natatandaan mo pa ba ang pangalan ng pinaka-una mong crush?= oo naman. at sikretong malupit ko na iyon.

14.Time na sobrang nastress ka?= noong preparasyon ng aking ikalabingwalong kaarawan.

15. Kung magiging cast ka ng isang show/ teleserye/ anime, ano un?= hindi ko matanto sa ngayon, ngunit huwag lamang talaga anime. utang na loob.

16.Paggising mo, sino ang gusto mong makitang katabi mo?= hay. sikreto ko na ulit iyon.

17. Ang babae ay *physically* attractive kapag..= malinis, may dating, at kapag maganda ang mata at ngiti.

18.Pinakagustong movie mo na kung saan kasama ang pinakagusto mong artista?= malamang ay center stage at love actually. aywan ko kung bakit.

19.Favorite line (from a song,movie,poem,etc?)= song: "...i'm a little bit of all, oh i need a clue... just a little bit of you... and i will fall... [a little bit, mymp]" movie: "you can't lose something you never had. [kate hudson, how to lose a guy in 10 days]" poem: "break the warmth i once lived for, i've shut my heart, i don't want more... [secret and secretÜ]"

20.Laging paalala ng mga magulang mo na lagi mo namang hindi sinusunod?= matulog na agad. hahaha

21.Anong masasabi mo sa huling movie na napanood mo?= [sa sinehan] napakaganda. mahal ko si hayden christensen. [sa bahay] ang husay ni vanessa williams. palakpak.

22.Kung may isang bagay kang sasabihin sa sarili mo, ano un?= never say never, don't give up on this. fight 'till the very end.

boredom. puh.

1.1st primary school:~* montessori children's house, panay avenue
2. 1st time u tried smoking?~* age 4? was really curious because my tita kept on smoking. eww. barfed it all out after.
3. 1st alcoholic drink u had?~* hmmm... its not even alcoholic. red wine.
4. 1st time u entered a bar:~* i don't remember. must be with my brothers or something.
5. 1st award u received:~* i don't remember
7. 1st time u were sent to the principal for disciplinary action?~* never happened.
8. 1st big crush!~* wah. never mind. [wink, wink!]
9. 1st kiss~* never mind again. no 'wink wink' this time.
10.1st record u bought:~* methinks it was a cassette tape of some popular band before pa
11. 1st musical instrument u learned to play:~* the piano
12 1st concert u watched:~* smokey mountain? haha old school!
14. first tv shows you really liked?~* gem/ jem (and the misfits) [the barbie show]
15.1st book u bought:~* nursery rhymes book! haha
16.1st sport u played:~* swimming :)
17.1st terrible fight:~* i don't remember
18. 1st best friend:~* my cousins, chim and candy
19. 1st friend's wedding u've attended?~* none yet
20. 1st person who greeted u on your last birthday:~* must be ac or rona.Ü
21. 1st collection~* stickers and stationery
22. 1st time u saw a ghost:~* never saw one
23. 1st roller coaster ride:~* a few years ago, space shuttle, enchanted
24. 1st ambition:~* i don't know. must be to be a singer or something
25. 1st job:~* video store person
26. 1st thing u bought with your 1st salary:~* i never got paid. it was my parents' business.
27. 1st thing u wanna get right now:~* rest.
28. 1st thing u wanna do at this time?~* shower [again.]
29. 1st person u hated?~* i don't remember
30. 1st person u wanna slap right now?~* hmmm... it is yet to be discovered. [shush.]

One Year Later

oh man.

i just realized that today's date was one of the most magical moments of my life last year. oh man, oh man, oh man. why did i have to remember it??? if only i didn't browse my blog's archives... ooh, i suck. grr.

okay, so, i am slowly losing track of everything again. darn it. i hate it when this happens.

focus, jai. FOCUS.

oh yes, i'm a little unwell. oh my. oh my. oh my.

exact time. exact moment. exact everything... almost.

Your Song

one of the songs i love...

YOUR SONG

it took one look

then forever lay out in front of me

one smile then i died

only to be revived by you

there i was thought i had everything figured out

goes to show just how much i know about the way life plays out

i take one step away

then i find myself coming back to you

my one and only

one and only you

now i know

that i know not a thing at all

except the fact that i am yours

and that you are mine

oh, and they told me that this wouldn't be easy

and though i'm not one to complain

i take one step away

then i find myself coming back to you

my one and only

one and only

i take one step away

then i find myself coming back to you

my one and only

one and only you

back from outer space

yesterday was... never mind.

chitchat with those who mattered, small talk with those who really don't. and i again found out that people still love talking about yours truly. oh well. like i'm not used to it yet. whatever.

tita irene just left for greener pastures, i hope. i miss her a lot, though. not only because she's so nice to me, but also because she's another person i can talk to about different things. and i know that a lot of people are sad now because she's gone. oh well.

darna just got back from lagoona with [guess what?] no credits. [oops, i should've said without nalang. hahahaÜ] oh well. another thing i'm used to na. :p

i just discovered cappuccino mcflurry. weow.Ü it's about time they did something okay with the mcflurry after getting the m&m kind out of the market. oh well [again].

my amygdala is currently hijacked... so bad. i have runthru for my recital and another class tomorrow[in a different location]. same time, after lunch. i soooo want to divide myself in two parts now. grrr. runthru's in mandaluyong, the other class is somewhere in rizal. yes, both ends of my life. grr. both are equally important, but... haaaaaah! i just don't know.

oh well.

i'm starting to think that my stint as wonderwoman is about to end. although i again have regained some of the hope i once dreamed of having, still, i really don't know what to think. is this stress? i hope not. grrr. i suck.

nothing else to do but practice, rest, and be ready for anything.

i know i am.

i soo hope i'm thinking sane.

bloody day

what a day.

i wanted the title of this entry to literally convey what happened to yours truly today.

oh yes, it was a hell of a bloody day. yes, i lost some of my most precious type o blood again to a blasted syringe. of course, the battle for retaliation was won by the freaking needle, and i was left with a long piece of rubber something clutching the remains of my left strong arm.

alas, the jelly arm.

tried cotton and leukoplast to make the tiny pricked part "germ free," [or at least temporarily protected] but to no avail. eventually had to take it out, because not only did it become irritating, it also felt so restraining. oh well. no one lives a healthy life without germs anyways. so, jai, shaddup and get more iron. hahaha.

i am happy to say that i will have a very busy[-er?] day tomorrow. i don't know why i'm happy about it, but i am. i have to traverse the roads of might have been again. the head-aching and patience-testing traffic will again present itself to moi.

inhale. exhale. inhale. exhale.

what else can i do? i hope i don't miss class tomorrow.

oh well.

a lull in time

it's hella embarrassing to admit that i was bawling my eyes out for most of star wars III. as much as i'd hate to admit it, yes, i cried for anakin skywalker's fate. give me a break, okay? i'm still pretty annoyed he's a sith lord now.

oh well.

i had a great time at pictorials yesterday morning.Ü although it seemed like we were a part of the mickey mouse club in the last costume we fitted, it was kind of okay... at least we didn't have a dull time. and the maroon costume, my goodness. prom girls or drab muslim ladies-in-waiting? i can't really tell the difference with what we'll wear. oh well again. at least we're all wearing it. hah.

i watched my former dance teacher's company's recital yesterday after pictorials. all the kids were adorable, especially those in the hawaiian class (okay, so my mom taught them, but they're all look sooo sweet!Ü). the hiphop kids were amazing, too, and their smiles were really infectuous. i can't help smiling my behnd off and bopping my head to the beat. hohoho. and i saw my other teacher there. coolness.Ü

bad news on the loose again. i hate it when i always get to talk about bad news. but eventhough i can't stand talking about it, it's everywhere. grr.

this blasted computer's driving me nuts again! grrr!!!

sleepless...

i spent the entire day alone in my house. oh yes, poor me. what's really sucky is that i had to be really, really on my toes because everything was getting busier and more annoying by the minute (and have i mentioned MORE ANNOYING?). the phone was ringing off the hook, and i hated it, cz most of the calls weren't for me... and if ever they were, the conversation were sooo short i almost forgot what we talked about right after i put down the receiver. wah.

because of the extremely unsettling circumstance, i sought refuge from the internet-- to no avail. i bored myself even more by completing the final season of FRIENDS i haven't watched for the nth time yet. that was my final attempt to keep myself up until other people shall grace this abode. but ho-ho-ho, as expected, my falling eyelids have once again failed me. i drifted off to dreamland just as rachel was about to get to ross before his wedding. oh joy. i missed the best part. oh well. next time.

it's quite a surprise when someone unexpected calls, huh? duh. well, so someone unexpected called me a few hours ago. and it was freakishly "anubuh," cz when i said 'wait,' she put down the phone. talk about misunderstanding. grr. annoying.

i'm kind of starting to miss the days that were... hmmm. oh well. at least having had a glimpse of it made me feel a little okay. i never want to really go back to those times, though... for some reason, i like getting tired this way more. and i feel more accomplished. hahaÜ although, the things i do now doesn't make me let loose as much. oh well. it's still all about the math.

i feel my brother's gonna be out long tonight... probably gallavanting with his friends right now, as chandler would say (uh-oh... too much FRIENDS???). which means, i get to use the computer a little longer. (sigh.)

a lifelong drama

i just realized that the blog name i used in my alternate blog is TOO old. i have been stuck with the phrase for as long as i can remember. oh well. times have changed. so have i. and a lot of other things.

it's time to move on.

dear darna has just left for subic and i am still stuck at home, waiting for a miracle to shine its mighty powers upon me. how utterly depressing my present situation is.

watching four seasons of FRIENDS straight and a couple other movies didn't help either. i hate that my eyes were the only mini-parts of my body constantly moving all day. i'm such a bum.

beep beep BEEP. please. somebody get me out of this house or i'll rot in solitude and excessive dramatic demarcation of all i have left in me.

i now name myself the biggest freak in the land. my mindless ramblings of all i have to do to keep my sanity intact seem to be driving nuts everyone sorry enough to hear me. oh joy. next thing i know, i'll be waking up next to an overflowing dumpster late at night in an alley in the middle of nowhere. i hope not.

where's that storm when i need it? at least let something happen to keep me from writhing in pain from this involuntary internal torture i am currently in. whoa.

oh man. this is going to be a long day.

my stars say it all

The Bottom Line:
Call in your pit crew if a big issue crops up. Ask the experts for their opinion.

In Detail:
You've never been afraid to put some distance between you and a problem that just won't be solved. You don't do it often, but when you've tried your best for a long time and not gotten anywhere, you're smart enough to know that a change of scenery can work wonders. So now that you've decided you're jee-ust about done putting all your energy into what's beginning to look like a no-win situation, isn't it time for a trip? Just a quick one?

i don't think so.

as far as i know, going back's REALLY going to be different, but i don't care. i won't flake out on this. just this once. one last time.

so much for my lucky stars.

anubuh.

you know what my japanese name is? Misako Ito. my goodness. hay saws.

http://www.blogthings.co/japanesenamegenerator/

wow mexico! Doña Elodia

http://www.blogthings.com/mexicannamegenerator/


i'm so bored.

my sad stars

because i am currently stuck in my house NOT watching the movie i love in many of my lives, my sad stars are wandering the depths of the web, trying to calm themselves of the catastrophe that is solitude.

no wonder i feel so lost now. harharharÜ

What is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

Star Wars Horoscope for Pisces

A typical Pisces, you have your head in the clouds.You're self-sacrificing and a bit too passive to stand up to the dark side.You become fairly pessimistic when put under pressure.You are a chameleon - wanting to change your scenery on occassion.

Star wars character you are most like: Lando

http://www.blogthings.com/starwarshoroscopes/

oh, how cool is this?

sorry. i'm such a freak.

Your Star Wars Name and Title

Your Star Wars Name: Jaimo Otque

Your Star Wars Title: Acivan of Aneek

http://www.blogthings.com/starwarsname/

17:04

[background music: negative things -selwyn]

conversations with the insane have brought me back to earth.Ü although i will always be scared of next week's agenda, i will still go. the sudsy conversation i will soon get to have with the baller is kind of getting me freaked about this whole endeavor starting next week. i would soo like to say that i don't care at all, but i still can't help it. i still have to constantly be careful of all i do. oh my.

of course, the other concerns will be unwelcome as soon as next semester starts, but, being the freak that i am, i will still be a dear and go on with the battles i want to take part in. for the love of things, i won't care if i become wonderwoman again. at least i did it.

i was greeted by the guardia civil last night as i was getting ready to go home. i didn't know news got to THEM. and so i will do better. yes, tita, i won't screw up my life.

no second thoughts.

ohkaay.

how quaint.

Your Irish Name Is...

Eimear Connolly

What's your Irish Name?

brain gender???

so this is what brain gender means...

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

http://www.blogthings.com/genderbrainquiz/

kikay invasion

i am not alone.

bellas in the house. labanderas. beach babes. whatevah.

yeayeayea.Ü

diamonds are a girl's best friend. wahahaÜ

wahahaaah.

happy birthday to the 18 year old (i think) racer in the depths of filinvest 1. wah. goodluck, man.

darna lost her bato again. laos.

jopay and the gang

"kumusta ka na?"

hmmm...

today was slow-paced, actually. since this morning, i have been thinking of all the crap that will pass me by. i had a stroke of luck when i got to school and met with darna (only in a superman costume this time).

weow, king b, how utterly lazy. thanks for the unprinted mush. you made our unwanted trip to school REALLY worthwhile.

coolness.

i startled dear friend a while ago. ipod listening is useless. i almost got flipped over though, if i didn't show my face at once. who would've thought this girl knew taekwondo? a ballet and taekwondo girl? plus softball and soccer is scary. you surf, mahn?!?! how extreme of you, dear. well, good thing you didn't get to crack most of my bones this afternoon. that would've been neat. harharhar.

starting point: my blue gate.

i traversed most of quezon city from around 6:30 pm with a laos superhero who forgot her bato. a downpour was predicted, but, being the good girl that i am, i barged out of the house without an umbrella (wrong move #1). as soon as we got to ride a jeep, the expected rain began to pour. my goodness, did we get all soggy.

2nd station: kfc cubao

we got off the jeep though the sky was about to fall down on us. puddles were ran over, and strings were in the way as all hell broke loose. and we ran. for our lives. manong guard was not very helpful as well, because all he did was laugh at how gorgeous we looked. do not pass go. do not pick up chicken box of 6. emily was tortured, stuffed, and given a bath after this. due to underestimated circumstances, we involuntarily staked out at dear colonel's place. soggy and pathetic. what a combination.

after one million years and a lot of textmates, a family will starve because of the current situation. it was either we die and the pack gets to eat, or we live and the pack starves. we chose option #1.

3rd station: shoemart cubao

at last. shelter. we made it through the rain. hahaha.

4th station: shopwise

we made it. halfway there.

5th station: araneta circle

gateway in focus!!! hallelujah! we're alive!!!

6th station: farmer's plaza

a few more strides, and the game will be over. on to the finish line!!!

7th station: our places

how cool. the family's all set, the three-way is resurrected, and we're both tired.

hello, jopay.

mayonnaise is on tomorrow. dulce, you better be there. :p mangoes in waiting, cool cool, cool.

i love my life.

a lasting memory for the uberlybittersweet day. thank you all.

confessions and bad luck

recent events have made me feel sorry for myself even more. no matter how hard i try to be happy in everything i do, every sad memory of what there was creeps its way back into my mind. although this is a normal thing for me, i still keep thinking that this might be really unusual, primarily because nothing seems to make me clear my head of all that bull.

i just heard from a friend that the end is near. well, actually, i know the end is near. the end of my sanity is fast approaching as well. with all that's happening, i'm almost regretting the day i was ONLY almost run over by the buses, cars, and jeeps that dominated most of aurora boulevard.

have you ever heard people saying that "love is in the air?" well, actually, to put it in my situation, luck is in the air. and i don't mean good.

everything seems to be crashing down on me, and i am left paralyzed and weak. some say that this may be a prelude to something greater, or that these things are just trials i have to go through... but... i don't know. am i just being pessimistic about everything, or are things really on their way to hell? even i'm getting confused.

oh well. i pretty much can't do anything about it now anyway, so i guess i'll just have to wait until things get better. well, i hope they get better soon, because if not, i might not be able to take it very well. so please.

i woke up a little past 5 this morning. my responsibilities are done, and i still torture my body with waking up that early? i don't know why, i guess it's the body clock still working. i wonder, when will that cease to exist for the summer? i'm at least entitled to a few more hours of sleep.

after a text to the sawi and a few other messages from my best friend, i was almost falling asleep when my dad barged into my room, telling me i had a phone call. great. i answered the phone groggy like crazy, and i instantly fell asleep after. i was actually stopping my eyelids from closing while talking to the superhero, but good, she wanted to sleep also. harharharÜ

what's my point? i forgot again...

oh, ok... so as soon as i fell asleep, i had the weirdest dream. it was a showcase of all my friends lost and in hiding, and what's worse, it was set right in my living room. what makes it freakier is that most of the people i didn't want to see or even hear from were there, and in the dream, it was like we were so close and we missed each other so much.

ohkaaaaaaaaayyy...

eew, eew, eew.

never mind. i have to go reclaim my dignity.

The Keys To My Heart

what does this mean???

The Keys to Your Heart

***You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
***In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
***You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
***You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
***Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets
***Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
***You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
***In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

i'm so confused. i actually have to prioritize something first, but thoughts are seemingly just pouring into my mind. well, what a great start to a very lazy day. there's nothing i can do in this house except watch dvds and use the computer. and don't get me started on the unending queue of dvds that i've already checked out because of this uncompromising ending to my bittersweet summer.

oh well. there's still tomorrow. but still. hmph

Livin' It Up II

someone says i don't have the heart for what i'm doing. somebody please clear things up for me... how do i get the heart for something? i mean, i totally love what i'm indulging myself in, but it seems as if all my attempts aren't enough. i wouldn't want to quit on something i've started to love doing even more. though everything will be a drag once i get my answer, i don't care. i want to make myself feel better. i will.

no tears. no time to cry. i'm just making the most of life.

no matter who i'm going to end up being with in this, i'm going on with everything. to hell with all prejudice. i'm in this for the long haul.

someone once told me: "try and try until you die. if you die, well, AT LEAST YOU TRIED."

i almost became a victim of the headline of every paper yesterday. for some reason, my sense of clarity left my mind the minute i woke up. i have just realized that at this point in one's life, travelling alone is a problem. you will never get the order of the universe. in the greater scheme of things, you will FOREVER be lost. so companions will be your best friends once you're in this zone.

how i wish i was with someone yesterday morning. i almost got killed.

Livin' It Up

just makin' the most of life...

no stress... no tears... just leavin' it all behind.

frequency equals endurance. sweat equals gain. smile equals a winner.

whatever happens, i'll be back. i'm not about to give up now. this is what i want to do, and i won't stop doing it because of a primary mishap. i will be better. and to hell with my uberly-twisted veins.

If an eye is for an eye... Then an egg is for a saint. ;)

mysterio ng kalawakan

dahil hindi lingid sa aking kaalamang nalulungkot pa rin ang superhero, kinakailangang maghandog ng kaunting mga talata para sa kanya.

PARA SAYOW: sadly, though, we all MUST face defeat in a time or another. as much as we'd all hate to admit it, learning to go on in living with the rest of our sanities will be the last road we will have to take. hard, yes. but that's the one thing that will keep us going.

tomorrow may be a far cry from the dream you once had, but keep in mind that there will still be answers for the crap you're in now. continuously looking for means of taking back one's freedom is not easy, so it is only proper for us to keep our cool and wait. you will have your time.

the mystery will be back, but in its own time. no matter how much the untouchables all keep you away from it, if YOU really want it to be that way, it will be that way. your decision is the last thing those crackpots can take away from you.

stars will always be in heaven, and the people in those stars will never cease to shine in your life. so losing grip is not an option. after all, you are your own enemy.

goodluck.

DOMESDAY I

death by walking.

cool.

today was okay, but the announcement of the extraordinary is keeping everyone on their toes. nobody wants to go home. everyone wants to cry.

nothing can ever prepare me for what will happen to me for the rest of today. i want to scream, but i can't. i want to go out and party, but i can't. i want to sleep, but i can't. i want to die, but i'm still alive.

double quote: "ika nga ni tor, 'eh what's for us?'" kuyaÜ

hay. if it's not for you, it's not for you.

how true, how true.

but still, I CAN BACK WALK NOW!!!!! hurrah for jaims!!!ÜÜÜ

many thanks to ate paula, kuya marvin, kuya ian, kuya edz, and the rest of the happy people. thanksthanksthanks.Ü you are uberloved.ÜÜÜ

viva santo tomas!Ü

ruff-ruff.

[Whatever comes into your mind first.]

1. pen- pilot green/purple signpen

2. paper- roses

3. school- "let's go st.paul [clap,clap,clap,clap]"

4. holiday- inn

5. pillow- sleep deprived moi

6. ice cream- monster

7. fast food- swatch [go figure]

8. song- 'livin' it up' yata yun... basta mariah

9. gimik- bye-bye

10. dog- ni reza

11. ex- convict

12. turtle- 'pawikan' ni cha

12. pool- chlorine

13. billiards- hay saws!

14. country- waffles

15. true friend- sis ko

16. hate- OC

17. life- "---is a bitch, so let's kick her in the ass."

18. cellphone- flashlight

19. bed- rest and relaxation

20. ring- sadako

22. blue- the Ateneo

23. orange- kupal

24. purple- sentidude

25. pink- pre-sane moi

26. green- spcp [and gold]

27. teacher- finals

28. subject- trig

29. game- na

30. tambayan- catwalk

31. cigar- isko

32. powerpuff girls- oversized. basta.

33. power- tiger power

34. love- lots

35. dream - "life is but a dream."

trinket festival

the upcoming grandeur of the 12th has brought to my alternate universe the frenzy of searching my world of beads, glitter, and colorful and decorative paraphernalia.

weow.

happy anniversary, dears.Ü

pinoy pop superstar seems to be showing itself to yours truly everywhere i go. and the people around me are going nuts over it. okay, i know it's a good competition naman, but then, i'm a little too informed about it already. so... stop.Ü

i again am beginning to love ashton kutcher. thank heavens he isn't in a stupid role in 'guess who?' [oops, branding?Ü] i just looooove him here.Ü at last, he doesn't have to play dumb to make himself endearing. too much of that already. move on, man. am glad he did.Ü

a round of applause for that.Ü

coolness.Ü

abaabaaba, some person's starting to get into my nerves... again. i had to find out about what that person did just when i was writing about the good day i just had. boo you. never again. you make me puke. eww. you think you're all that, BUT YOU'RE NOT.

look at yourself again in the mirror, man. i know how vain you are, but you're not how you think you are. try living in the real world. GET. A. CLUE.

YOU'RE. NOT. IT.

you make me hate your world even more. grr.

interesting.

hmmm...Ü

right now ur feelin>>>> lazy

because>>>> i don't have much to do.

last thing you did before filling this out>>>> updated my other blog

because>>>> i wanted to update my other blog.

the time you woke up today was>>>> 0530am

because>>>> i overslept and snoozed away when the 4am alarm came off.

the last thing you bought was>>>> mocha-filled biscuits. yesterday.

because>>>> it looked yummy on the shelf.

the last thing you did at school was>>>> had the notes of the last trig lecture photocopied

because>>>> i was busy doing the seatwork then, and i thought, "screw the notes."

the restaurant you hate most is>>>> i'd rather not say

because>>>> there are too many names i want to mention.

the song you'd probably still like until the day you die is?>>>> last chance

because>>>> it reminds me so much of all that's happened to me, and all the crappy and beauteous memories of the prime (so far) of my life.

your plans for the weekend are>>>> practice, practice, practice, torture, torture, torture.

because>>>> i just love getting my booty tired.

the last time you got really frustrated was>>>> a while ago, in math class.

because>>>> an uncompromising adult is on the loose. 'nuff said.

the last time you watched cartoons was>>>> i don't remember

because>>>> i don't watch t.v. anymore.

the last time you took a swim was>>>> last month, as far as i can remember.

because>>>> i don't remember why.

the time you'll be sleeping today is>>> really early.

because>>>> because i want to.

one thing that crossed your mind now>>>> auds.

because>>>> of pressure, pain, and torture.

one thing you want to tell that special sum1>>>> so much to say, so little time.

because>>>> that's how i feel.

get busy

R-E-S-P-E-C-T.

thanksthanks ate paula, kuya ajjie, kuya chris, ate 'jam', ate 'purrdy girl', kuya 'rok', kuya paolo, gymnast girl, jerwin, ate 'ice', astig 'ate' spot person, ate rachelle, ate berna, ate 'peytot', ate 'tarush, but no', guadalupe guy, snob birthmark girl, jasmine, dino, anjelica, cha, ivy, blessie, green-shirted girl, tin, ballet girl, madel, rachelle, diane. [kuya renz, i miss you. primary thanks to you.Ü] et al...

peace.

you will be uberloved.

lose my breath

can you keep up?


whoops... sorry... 'can i keep up?' pala.

hayhayhay.

today wasn't as tiring as my other death days.

and i hate it.

i think i need to torture myself more to make myself feel worthy of what i'm getting myself into in a few days. rarr. i can't even do a decent ---------.

front roll. tuck, pike (?), straddle. tuck, pike (?), straddle. so far so good. back roll. tuck, pike (?), straddle. tuck, pike (?), straddle... okay... cartwheels R and L...oh man... one hand right... running, one hand right... one hand left... running, one hand left... round off right... left... running round off right... left... practice... practice... practice... hand stand... help!!! head stand... tsk, tsk... balance... hand stand walk... spot please... 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8! down... recover... bridge walk... ouch... long sitting... front walk... whew... oops... hand stand... look up! bridge... recover... arms straight! smile. aaaaaaaahh...Ü back walk... backbend... swing... one, two, three, kick!!! oh man... again... aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!! i suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkk big time!!!!!

help, help, heeeeeeeeeeeeelppp...

so...

CAN I KEEP UP??? :'c

tick-tock.

i have to be asleep in a few minutes... but i can't help typing one last entry.

weee.

i was watching star wars 2 a while ago, and when i got to the part where obi-wan was tracking down jango and boba fett, i had to turn off the machine already. why? because my eyelids were slowly closing already, that's why.

and now i'm still staring at this screen.

oh well.

i wonder what will happen tomorrow? hmmm. reach out. sense the force around you. use your feelings you must. hmmm.

dangerous and disturbing this puzzle is. hmmm.

but who and why, harder to answer. meditate on this i will.

hmmm.

master yoda is an inspiration. yay.

funny, my parents aren't home yet. where could they have possibly gone?

i'm going to be a brat and whine: i want another rest day. another massage. a cold shower every 3 hours. i want to eat tuna and tomatoes tomorrow. i want my phone's battery to be drained RIGHT NOW!!! more hours of chill time. and everything else that goes with it. ooh-wee.

my brother's coming back from baguio tomorrow. byebye late nights of typing. hello to a good night's sleep. harharhar.Ü

and, speaking of which... if you'll excuse me, i will retire.Ü

SUNday

okay, the sun is literally getting on my nerves (yes, a very hard to reach place.). its almost 3am, and it's STILL so hot!!!

my supplies have been refreshed again, thank God.Ü the sheer pleasure and total enjoyment of browsing the watson's stalls for my necessities make everything seem therapeutic. yay.Ü

the queued activities dear julieta proposed will probably evaporate one by one in the very near future... as i am again awaiting one of my deaths, going out will probably be a problem. and not on THAT day. hell no. so... as early as now, wave goodbye to the reggae night, ukay trips, and endless chat-slash-bonding hours.

a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.

crap, i can't sleep. again. the massage didn't help much either. well, maybe for a few hours... but, other than that, ho-humm...

what to do, what to do?

rarr.

multiple madness

at last, after millions of light years, i again have resurrected.

the ongoing bodily torture i voluntarily throw myself into leave me paralyzed and dead to the world as early as 5 in the afternoon. wow. and i never thought sleep would feel THAT good.

well, we all learn something new.

anyways, i don't care. i love what i'm doing. i just hope my underworked ass does not give up on me. to the moon and back!!! yeayeayea!!!

my not-so-new friend turned things inside out for me. through the exaggerated happenings of the past week, all hail the new "day". (it's dai, people.) let's all live in a submarine!!!

yahoo.Ü

"...i don't know... i'm having fun, i guess. i mean, i know how people see me, like, one of those perfect girls that everything works out for... i just always wanted to punch one of them on the face... i'm not a robot, you know, i just haven't done very much... yet."
- Anna Ross (The Perfect Score)

how true, how true.