for a while there, i thought i was sucked into the twilight zone...
and then i opened my eyes.
of course, a computer screen with a single, almost monochroamtic window and multifarious boxes met my ever-so-fluttering eyes.
oops, i'm at work. :D
(but i'm home now, was just channeling the wonders of relay and beyond.Ü)
SOOOO.
those fated meetings were bound to conclude, and my seemingly hopeless journey towards unearthing the fossils of way back when magically and almost instantly presented themselves right in my face. so much for waiting for time to cease all foggy madness, i am now facing hard-core facts.
but, of course, since we all know that life brings us a plethora of surprises "every each time," let me go for the gold by saying i have learned a GARGANTUAN amount in those last few hours i spent as slave to life's effort to teach us the ropes with matters of momentary unfair-ness.
as much as i would like to elaborate, i can only say that i pray for the best for all the friends i know will enter the realm of judgment one of these days. all my love to you all. as for those hanging on to dear life, however, you guys know i am too. Ü
in whatever way, shape, or form people may see how life makes an effort to make us learn what we need to epitomize in our beings, i just want to let you all know i'll be here for the long haul. i don't know what else may happen in the next few days, but whatever it is, allow me to smile and finally put my panic button to rest. 2 days straight of panicky haven is REALLY not a good idea. :)
ANYWAY.
for whatever purpose i may be responding to, i know i want this right now. so, let us channel warrior princesses and be soldiers in our separate ordeals. i know i've contributed by heeding to wisdom's call and finally opening up ("no holds barred," haha!!!) and i know my piece was well-stated and finely-tuned. however, the most recent chain of events got me thinking. argh.
what to do, what to do.
i am just a puzzle of irregular sorts right now. i have just woven unceasing blabber and have turned it into a slave of eternity. for whatever it's worth, things are going to get better. let's make sure it does. Ü
luxurious sleep should be attained as well, to promote a healthier lifestyle and a paced heart. so, i shall retire. :)
off to the mattresses i go! ;p
Friday, March 27, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
beginnings and endings
it has always been a thought-provoking ordeal whenever i assess where i'm going in this madness people call life. at most times, i end up happy and contented with how i've seen things through different aspects, and i end my reverie with a smile and a breath of relief.
now, however, i am seemingly left dumbfounded at the thought of change starting to creep into my senses once again.
i am not at all terrified of what is to come. i actually am excited. but when i REALLY think of everything else in between, i plan nonstop and activate my panic button.
now that i've seriously made my mark on oblivion, my better judgment tells me i have yet to experience the wrath of time. woohoo.
as much as i want to resolve my thoughts right here and right now, time could not be a better juror in my momentary query. so i guess my phoned-in questions have yet to be relayed in utmost delay and i shall await the no response until time heeds my call.
no matter how my life is hectic in uncanny ways, i am in this for the long haul and i am holding tight until the end of the line. who knows what will be up when i arrive? only a few people know. albeit waiting for tomorrow with shivers in me timbers, might as well take on the role and make it work. after all, i still have a few moments of slavery (read: alipin-ness haha!) locked in my system :)
if all else fails, smile and make the magic happen. :)
now, however, i am seemingly left dumbfounded at the thought of change starting to creep into my senses once again.
i am not at all terrified of what is to come. i actually am excited. but when i REALLY think of everything else in between, i plan nonstop and activate my panic button.
now that i've seriously made my mark on oblivion, my better judgment tells me i have yet to experience the wrath of time. woohoo.
as much as i want to resolve my thoughts right here and right now, time could not be a better juror in my momentary query. so i guess my phoned-in questions have yet to be relayed in utmost delay and i shall await the no response until time heeds my call.
no matter how my life is hectic in uncanny ways, i am in this for the long haul and i am holding tight until the end of the line. who knows what will be up when i arrive? only a few people know. albeit waiting for tomorrow with shivers in me timbers, might as well take on the role and make it work. after all, i still have a few moments of slavery (read: alipin-ness haha!) locked in my system :)
if all else fails, smile and make the magic happen. :)
Monday, March 09, 2009
Feeling A Tad Random... ;)
Rules:Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things about you.
* as far as i'm concerned, i have been living a double life for the past year. and i love it ;)
* i love SHOES, bags, and clothes. and everytime i go anywhere, i restrain myself AS MUCH AS I
CAN to not splurge... (most of the time, to no avail. haha!)
* i constantly want to reinvent myself. i think change is good. :)
* i can say that a good handful know me REALLY well, and most people who say they know me know so much less than they actually think they do.
* i love to write. and speak. and express myself in thoughts and words. i literally can go on all day. :)
* people always think i'm unappoachable and snobbish when they first see me, but (i hope!) they change their minds after a few times spent with me.
* i don't mind being with different crowds everytime. i don't limit myself to being extra-exclusive with one group. :)
* i believe in making a difference. i know you can't do it all on your own, but it will certainly help if you do something.
* i am a dreamer. i want to do so much in life, and i feel one lifetime isn't enough for all the wonderful things there is to do in this earth.
* i have a panic button ready to be pressed every single time. i do a good job concealing my urge to use it, though. :)
* what i am now has been the product of a series of unfortunate events. and i can't wait for more bittersweet moments to come. :)
* i am of extreme personalities. i can be the most bubbly person now and the most cross later.
* some people think i have a problem if and when i keep quiet. i don't think silence is a bad thing,
though.
* i care. even when some people think i don't.
* i can say that the 2 people who have ever really hurt me have become my good friends now.
* i don't give up easily. but i learned that waiting is an even better choice sometimes. it makes you grow in ways you never think you would.
* i am always a plethora of emotions.
* little things make me happy. and when these accummulate, they become gynormous... and that makes it the most special. :)
* i ultimately adore GERBER DAISIES. and roses and tulips, too, but Lord bless those exquisite GERBERAS. :)
* yes, i have loved and lost. and since i don't give up easily, i'm still hoping for the best. :)
* i'm a sucker for massages. a good massage gives me unexplainable happiness. :)
* i believe in the need for cheese in life every so often. it's those cheesy bits of life that make everything else go 'round smoothly. :)
* i know i'm not the most fortunate of all people, but i know how to live with it and i'm okay. ;)
* i often get judged for who i'm not. and someday, i will learn to not even care.
* i love my family and friends even if they prove to be usually the source of my problems. i don't exactly know how to quantify how and why i love them all, i
just know i do. :)
* as far as i'm concerned, i have been living a double life for the past year. and i love it ;)
* i love SHOES, bags, and clothes. and everytime i go anywhere, i restrain myself AS MUCH AS I
CAN to not splurge... (most of the time, to no avail. haha!)
* i constantly want to reinvent myself. i think change is good. :)
* i can say that a good handful know me REALLY well, and most people who say they know me know so much less than they actually think they do.
* i love to write. and speak. and express myself in thoughts and words. i literally can go on all day. :)
* people always think i'm unappoachable and snobbish when they first see me, but (i hope!) they change their minds after a few times spent with me.
* i don't mind being with different crowds everytime. i don't limit myself to being extra-exclusive with one group. :)
* i believe in making a difference. i know you can't do it all on your own, but it will certainly help if you do something.
* i am a dreamer. i want to do so much in life, and i feel one lifetime isn't enough for all the wonderful things there is to do in this earth.
* i have a panic button ready to be pressed every single time. i do a good job concealing my urge to use it, though. :)
* what i am now has been the product of a series of unfortunate events. and i can't wait for more bittersweet moments to come. :)
* i am of extreme personalities. i can be the most bubbly person now and the most cross later.
* some people think i have a problem if and when i keep quiet. i don't think silence is a bad thing,
though.
* i care. even when some people think i don't.
* i can say that the 2 people who have ever really hurt me have become my good friends now.
* i don't give up easily. but i learned that waiting is an even better choice sometimes. it makes you grow in ways you never think you would.
* i am always a plethora of emotions.
* little things make me happy. and when these accummulate, they become gynormous... and that makes it the most special. :)
* i ultimately adore GERBER DAISIES. and roses and tulips, too, but Lord bless those exquisite GERBERAS. :)
* yes, i have loved and lost. and since i don't give up easily, i'm still hoping for the best. :)
* i'm a sucker for massages. a good massage gives me unexplainable happiness. :)
* i believe in the need for cheese in life every so often. it's those cheesy bits of life that make everything else go 'round smoothly. :)
* i know i'm not the most fortunate of all people, but i know how to live with it and i'm okay. ;)
* i often get judged for who i'm not. and someday, i will learn to not even care.
* i love my family and friends even if they prove to be usually the source of my problems. i don't exactly know how to quantify how and why i love them all, i
just know i do. :)
the beginning of randoms i will have to get out of my system :)
Entry #1
1. so, okay, yes. i missed hanging out with the alipins. kind of got a bit of that when jona and i chilled post-shift. :)
2. my current addiction: starbucks' iced (though i have it iced less) triple shot venti white chocolate mocha... yum!
3. i think the random flurry of cheese in one's life makes everything seem okay :) (read: one more chance) haha!
4. it's hard to miss people when you don't want them to know you miss them... because really, it'll show one way or another. waaaah loser. haha :)
5. weekend shifts are less eventful, which is great, but a tad lonely (missed you earlier, teammates. :( eww sappy.)
6. i know have to stop drinking coffee in the morning if i want to get myself some decent sleep.
7. i couldn't care less about my cheap-ass phone, but it would be great if i make myself buy myself a new one soon (post-birthday gift, haha!).
8. i just had the most bittersweet birthday, and i'm fine with it. :)
9. this is the first year ever that i didn't majorly celebrate my birthday. :)
10. people can surprise you sometimes. :)
11. i patiently await my Love Actually dvd... ahem!!! :D
12. i think i know, but i still don't. :)
13. i have just been informed that pearls actually enhance something if you wear them. i have no idea what that is, but i will sure as hell try not to wear them for the time being. (love you though, trish! i still heart the bracelet despite what donna and joseph said.:D)
14. i'm having fun with my teammates and not-so-teammates so far :) haha!
15. facebook is starting to get addictive for some strange, demented reason. :O
16. i'm a sucker for romantic comedies, which is why i need that cheesiness in my life at certain times, whether or not the film is foreign. :)
17. i still have to get that blasted Single Ladies mode out of my system.
18. i believe in retail therapy. :)
19. my refuge is nowhere to be found at the moment. :o
20. right now, i don't know what that refuge actually is... :o
like i said, randoms. ;)
1. so, okay, yes. i missed hanging out with the alipins. kind of got a bit of that when jona and i chilled post-shift. :)
2. my current addiction: starbucks' iced (though i have it iced less) triple shot venti white chocolate mocha... yum!
3. i think the random flurry of cheese in one's life makes everything seem okay :) (read: one more chance) haha!
4. it's hard to miss people when you don't want them to know you miss them... because really, it'll show one way or another. waaaah loser. haha :)
5. weekend shifts are less eventful, which is great, but a tad lonely (missed you earlier, teammates. :( eww sappy.)
6. i know have to stop drinking coffee in the morning if i want to get myself some decent sleep.
7. i couldn't care less about my cheap-ass phone, but it would be great if i make myself buy myself a new one soon (post-birthday gift, haha!).
8. i just had the most bittersweet birthday, and i'm fine with it. :)
9. this is the first year ever that i didn't majorly celebrate my birthday. :)
10. people can surprise you sometimes. :)
11. i patiently await my Love Actually dvd... ahem!!! :D
12. i think i know, but i still don't. :)
13. i have just been informed that pearls actually enhance something if you wear them. i have no idea what that is, but i will sure as hell try not to wear them for the time being. (love you though, trish! i still heart the bracelet despite what donna and joseph said.:D)
14. i'm having fun with my teammates and not-so-teammates so far :) haha!
15. facebook is starting to get addictive for some strange, demented reason. :O
16. i'm a sucker for romantic comedies, which is why i need that cheesiness in my life at certain times, whether or not the film is foreign. :)
17. i still have to get that blasted Single Ladies mode out of my system.
18. i believe in retail therapy. :)
19. my refuge is nowhere to be found at the moment. :o
20. right now, i don't know what that refuge actually is... :o
like i said, randoms. ;)
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