badass happy dancing

i never realized how things can take an instant turnaround when the going gets fun. :)

last night was a sudden gush of happiness to hearts in despair, presenting a beacon of light to those who have experienced the worst. and, just like magic, everybody made happy dancing sooooo badass the floor was burned everytime we hit it with our grooves. :)

thank you, merry christmas, happy new year, and everything else. cheers to a great eleven-oh! :)

scratch that

I SPOKE TOO SOON.

i am royally pissed at one being. add to that the fact that everything has not been going swell for the past few hours. i am fuming mad.

go enjoy your "real" friends. good riddance.

amber is the color of my energy

i'm sooooooo excited! :)

i'm finally going to be able to see my barx again. after 10 million years, we shall reunite! :) awww. i miss you all. at least we will be able to spend some part of christmas together. PLUS, we'll do it in 2 days! :D though we may not be exactly complete during those days, at least there's progress. and at least we're together. aww. i missed them freakazoids. :)


back in 2004, post- grad practice! :)

 i'll see you later, crazies! :)

rekindling kid love :)

i remember vividly how i pestered my mom to get me pink-lined lisa simpson sneakers when i was younger. i tried looking it up online, to no avail. this is the best shoe i saw of the crazy family i love to bits. :)

my lisa simpson pair was much simpler, though. it was plain white with random pink details and pink soles. plus, on the outer side of each shoe, she was playing her saxophone and making bad-ass music [at least i believe so]. :D

i remember wanting to use that pair until it was SOOO worn-out and all dirty and gross. well, not really. just when it almost reached that point. heehee. but it's ubercool nonetheless. :D

soooo. lisa simpson was one of my chilhood heroines. she was cool then, and she still IS now. :)

i just realized that i've been really showing how much i love these guys, even when i'm at work. why? because even my batchmates see me browse through pages upon pages of their material, and i stuff my hard drive with things related to them. but this guy ruined my prowess:

Apu Nahasapeemapetilon

and i will forever despise his Quik-E-Mart-dwelling ass because of that. HAHAHA :))

i would've guessed it if it had been one of the aunts, considering a gesture depicting big hair was made. it would've been gravy picking between selma and patty. LOL. in whichever case, though, i would go for selma as a charade answer. heehee. :))
    

                                       

                      Patty Bouvier                                                                            Selma Bouvier



see the bigger hair? that big-hair-act seemed SOOO selma. haha. oh well. what's done is done. let's get over it already. heehee. :))

anyhoo, i love how kids can be kids. hence, exhibits A and B:

        

ooh, how i love being a kid. ;)

testing every ounce of my patience

people seem to think it's april. everybody wants to test all i have.

just when i've gotten over my nimbus day, another dark cloud comes. SHEEEEEESH. do i look like a joke? it's beginning to offend me already.

so i guess it'll be a quiet day today. Merry Christmas to me.

my post-christmas grown-up self

yes, i know it's a little bit too late for this. but hey, the holiday just ended and everything's going well [for me, that is].

be grateful that you don't have everything you want. that means, you have the opportunity to be happier tomorrow than you are today. :)

2:58 am

that effing phone wouldn't stop ringing at 2:58 am. and when i finally got up to answer it, IT STOPPED.

somebody gag me now please.

and i've been up since. enough to [1] finally get sooooo bored with tapfish, tapzoo, coin frenzy and all the other games on my mom's iPad; [2] toss and turn in bed, while turning the fan off and then on and then off and then on again because it would be chilly and then i'd feel warm and then it gets chilly again and then i feel warm again *sheesh!!!,* and; [3] enough to find out that my parents aren't home yet.

wow. nightouts. :) heehee. though it's my brother's thing they were supervising, i would think they'd just go home and have the crew take over. but no. oh well. at least now they're home, sound asleep and getting the rest they very much deserve.

i had a rollercoaster day today. i was initially ecstatic because i had finally attended at least one simbang gabi for this year--though anticipated--and the added bonus of a fruteez hour and a half instantly made my evening. :) i didn't care it was raining--nothing could ruin my day. and then i knew i thought wrong. a slight twist of fate dampened my elated spirits and kicked my happy place's sorry ass.

of course, the discontinued sojourn cleared my nimbus mood, primarily because i was allowed to breathe and let the bad vibes go. but, of course, what helped the most was the extensive walking and my kiddie treat for myself-- mcdonald's chicken and spaghetti :)

i seriously forgot about that when i was too concerned about growing up. and now that i randomly return to it, i re-appreciate the simple joys i had as a kid. which is exactly what i did last night. :)

and it's half past 6 now. i need to recharge before later's shift--and fast.

bad vibes, begone! :)

when everything gets crappy

we are prohibited to speak...

... and we laugh our brains out.

copycatism gone professional

start-start, op-mac.

yes. you may have read it, but i'm sure you don't get it. i am a professional copycat.

struc-struc.

though it may creep you out to think so, sadly, it's exactly what i do. and i don't do it just because i want to, i do it because it's what my present commitment calls for. and just to make things saucier, there're a couple of things you have to edit when you start parroting minutes upon minutes of hullabaloo and seemingly nonsensical banter.

peerko, par-par.

lead-mac. [here we go.]

as depressing as everything gets [comma] it's apparently normal to fail like we've been doing so far [peerko] but the actual experience of failing is excruciating [comma] and ego [hyphen] shattering moments are really rampant though we despise the genuine feeling of it [peerko]

[par-par]

to cut to the chase [comma] what we really need to learn is the eternal [comma] bright [hyphen] and [hyphen] shiny place we call detachment [peerko] suffice to say that i [comma] compared to most people [comma] find that difficult to achieve [peerko]

[par-par]

in the greater scheme of things [comma] i would think of detachment as gravy [peerko] this time [comma] however [comma] i just feel new beginnings should be spent with a sense of achievement and further regard for personal growth [peerko] and [comma] as an authentic advocate of personal growth myself [comma] i would think a good start is the way to go [peerko]

[par-par]

as with a number of instances [comma] i thought wrong [peerko] ostensibly unaffected by a string of unfortunate events [comma] i make sure i do things right the next time [peerko] but everything else will not cooperate [comma] and that makes me crash momentarily [peerko] i hate to see everyone around me completely adjust to the annoying mood swing i suddenly don [comma] but it takes some getting used to and i can't stay icy [hyphen] cool forever [peerko]

[par-par]

we all have our moments [comma] you know [peerko]

[par-par]

so here's to the entire voicewriting batch's survival [comma] everyone [comma] keep their sanities screwed in [peerko] i guess i just have to let go of the desire to always be in top shape because [comma] sometimes [comma] failing is not NOT an option [peerko]

[par-par]

on that note [comma] let me end this reverie by quoting a reality i have recently discovered from the lives of them Brits [colon]

because somehow [comma] no matter how much we try to prevent it [comma] we will get to the breaking points of our good days [peerko] and when you think about it [comma] it's not about what happened [peerko] in the long run [comma] it boils down to how you deal with it [peerko]

[par-par]

so yes [comma] Keep Calm and Carry On [peerko] :D

[par-par] [op-mac]

thank you [peerko] ladies and gentlemen [comma] this concludes today's conference [peerko] you may disconnect your lines at this time [peerko] thank you for your participation [peerko]

new blood

life's been seriously telling me that the change i finally thrust myself into is good. and it's something i completely see myself doing-- maybe not everyday, but it's something i choose to do --for a long period of time, at least.

the inadequacy of it all poses a bigger challenge to most people, especially to me. just because it's not going to be fun if you actually suck at it. ;p

we've had quite a number of notable moments in the fast-tracked world we're desperately trying to survive in. in most cases, we amuse ourselves and play the eternal games training will allow you to do-- taboo, charades and/or pictionary. and, of course, in the midst of all that "hard work," we make sure we spend time loosening up our brain waves. hence, exhibit A:

Francis tries out ACTUALLY using the microphone.

of course, Exhibit A fails. and so in the greater scheme of things, we just pretend he's using the microphone and bask in the megaphone-ness of his voice. HAHAHA.

and then, because we refuse to just watch, OF COURSE, we do Exhibit B:

The girls minus Shen

and the rest, as they say, is history. :)

new blood 2.0

to make things more interesting, there are those events in life you just can't live without, like birthdays. :) primarily because... had you not been born, you wouldn't need one of these. heehee :)

so, to make our ailing [girl pains, helloooo.] trainer's day bright and shiny--and teary. LOL--we loving folks schemed away and came up with these babies:

since we had only a few hours to get things done, naturally, we got resourceful and used office paraphernalia essentials to make things--erm--present-worthy. :)

colored newsprint c/o manong guard and ate from the pantry, brown card-ish thing from 7eleven [which was actually the back of one long brown envelope], magic tape and colored pens from rhea herself [HAHA]. 

• "card" cover design and message courtesy of yours truly
• caricatures [will post photo later] by francis
• flowers made by erwin
• box and movable bird origami-fied by ray
• box assembly and final touches by joth

kudos to the team for a job well done! :D

and then everybody got transformed into bite-size creations and looked like this:

it's kind of alarming, though, that my face is as wide as my hips here. boooo. HAHAHA. :)) but still. that's reason enough to go on and keep moving so it doesn't actually happen. LOL.

that's VW Batch 12 for you :)

like a duck

contrary to popular belief, it's been ubercrazy for me these past few weeks.

it's been a TOTAL rollercoaster ride since i decided to turn my life around. day by day, as i realize the completion of every single task i decide to accomplish, my insides churn and i step onto the stage to face the music.

but, times have proved that it is never just THAT. everything is fleeting, and so is what will happen shortly after one thing is done.

and so, in the brink of yet another life-altering transition, i find myself scurrying away from everything normal. my feet paddle frantically under the impossibly murky water i dove into. and i won't be stopping anytime soon.


i make it a point to hide my panic button moments beneath my smiles and deal with the present. problem is, though it may seem as if i'm good and all that shizzle, my mind goes into overdrive and i am left with advancing thoughts of life and things about it. so bad that when i try to fence it in, the more it seeps out of my entirety.


and now, above all things, i believe i have created my frustrations.

but still, life is good to me [nerves much?!]. though i get disheartening times, it gives me back random rays of light, telling me that it isn't so bad after all. now, what i just have to do is bank on those rays to make things feel right.

right. that's it. :)

so, i'll hibernate to be up for the long haul, and i'll see you on the flipside. like i said, "Patience. There is a plan. :)"