...

i'm happy.

i am.

i can prove it.

yes, it may be bordering on the insane and mababaw, but still, i'm happy... isn't that enough?

but i don't fully understand why i say i'm happy...

despite all the crap that's happening to me...

why am i worrying now that i feel i'm happy?

am i really happy?

i think i am.

but a lot of people are hurt... everyone's worrying... and i'm worried too... why do i feel guilty? is it because i know i hurt people through my actions? or because this might be wrong? i'm beginning to get confused.

BIG step. what's done is done.

help!!!