the past

i must admit, in the most non-bitchy of all the bitchiness that i am, i miss you.

since facebook has been revamping most of its interface, i get to see something new everyday. the new layout, perhaps, or the new links and such that randomly pop up.

which brings me to my newest discovery: that sidebar of memories. :) it annoyed me, at first, to see something seemingly nonsensical flash before my eyes AGAIN, but as i saw some statuses of mine with actual substance posted there, i caved and went on clicking almost everything heartstrings-tugging that i saw.

and yes, i miss my old life, too. my old, even-more-flawed self, my escapades, my feelings, my crazy friends. and it actually hurts to think that some of them have been lost. somewhere, i don't know.

i wish everything would reach its conclusion, so that most things can go back to normal. yes, that's right, i WISH.

*sigh*

so, cheers to new beginnings, and i shall continue to pray for miracles to unfold. :)

Despedida Del Dia

Estoy muy emocionado tanto y triste. Mañana, mi corazón va a ser mi escenario. Esta es la culminación de todo lo que NOSOTROS hemos trabajado, y agradezco a Dios que he sido muy afortunada de haber compartido experimentando el resto del mundo con todos vosotros. Yo siempre te amaré y te echo de menos todos. Tú lo sabes. <3

UST Singers, Choir of the World 2010
Llangollen, Wales, United Kingdom
June 2010

Nandito Pa Rin Tayo :)

A random song that tugged at my heartstrings... Thanks, Jemmy and Kuya Jie for introducing me to this song :) lovettt :)

This is just one of the songs that remind me of the good things in life. That no matter how hopeless or how pathetic life treats us, there's still something to smile about, some semblance of perfection that will imperfectly be perfect to no one else but you.

To the friends i have, new and old, you are, in large part, an essential factor in my existence. :) Cheesy, yes, but true. Always believe that in the course of our lives, when i am needed, i will be there. No matter how inconvenient or whatever, in some way, you will find me there. hugs to you all!!!

-= <3 =-

Naaalala mo ba noon nung bata pa tayo

Naaalala mo pa noon nung bago pa ang mundo

Kahit ano man ang iharap sa atin

Kahit ano ay kakayanin

Andami dami kailangan pang gawin

Sabay tayong nangarap at sabay din natuto

Sabay din natin nakita na nagbago ang mundo

Kahit magbagong lahat sa ating mundo

Okay lang yon magkasama tayo

Maaasahan mo ang pangakong ito…

Masaya malungkot

Nabigo naabot

Nandito parin tayo

Nawala nakita

Lumakas humina

Nandito parin tayo

Di ka mag-iisa may kasama ka sa biyahe ng buhay mo

Umulan umaraw

Nandito pa rin tayo…

Ang dami ng nangyari sa atin

Nandito pa rin tayo

Sa hirap at ginhawa tuloy ang ikot ng mundo

Kahit ngaun alam ko makakaya natin

Kahit anung iharap sa atin

Andami dami pwede pang gawin…

taking it to the streets

there is ABSOLUTELY no significance nor reason behind that title. i just think it sounds good for the multitude of sorts i'm feeling right now. :)

and the randomness shall now commence. :)

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20 october 2009 0729am

it's been a hell of a ride today [well, "yesterday"]. firstly, a BIG CONGRATULATIONS to Abeleds for finally making it to the alumni bunch. :) woohoo, welcome to the club! :)

now, for your training... ;p

next, i am again in the brink of polluting my brain with millions of memories that i do not want to encase myself in at the moment. the mere thought of everything to think about drives me nuts, and the random-slash-irate customer service style might get unleashed once again. i'd rather NOT have that now, of course, since i realized that purposefully modulating my voice makes me save it more. and we all know [well, NOT REALLY, but if you know how i speak, you'll get the idea of my exaggeration] i can get high-pitched when i get argumentative.

harharhar.

but with the a/c right behind me--erm--i don't think so.

** * **

so, on to the bashing.

it's just so irritating that for some strange, demented reason, a frightening blue-collar rampancy is on the loose. well, for patience's sake, i purse my lips and randomly interact with the heaven-colored plate in front of me, claiming contempt. and the funniest unseen interactions bordered my sanity as white-collared minds basked in sheer delight.

let the mindgames begin :)

** * **

it is a complete waste to while away the hours of my existence in a trance, and that's what i have seemingly been doing for the past eons of my life. oh no. so much for productivity. but soon, i hope, my fate will take a different course. :)

and truly, facebook makes me engage in neurobics in my almost hopeless pursuit for further activity. it's such a pity that my refuge lies in an intangible world, crying out to the reality that is.

soon, though, fate shall take a wider trend, and i will be freed from my thought bubbles. i have yet to prepare for what's next, and brace myself for the wrath that is to come.

for everything else, i shall wait with a megawatt smile albeit the scare of unknown carnage. haha. so much for sitting on top of the world. ;p