"early yet to say what lies ahead, it's the first day of the rest of our lives..."
wala lang, i just thought that song line's so in tune with how (and what) i'm feeling right now.Ü
something highly unusual happened last night... mr. 10,000 promises actually arrived. oh well. good thing i was prepared. and, yes, friends, :he: stayed for a while. nothing out of the ordinary happened, though. everything just appeared to be a little tense. yes, the presence of his pitiful attempts to amuse me was utterly obvious, but nothing else is new. except... for a lame suhol brought to life by a single crunch chocolate bar. hmph... if i know... that was from our friend's dad (he just arrived from abroad)... i mean, get real. it's not like mr. 10,000 promises is on top of my "sweetest people" list. someone must've told him to do that, or he must've been full already, so he decided to give me the last chocolate bar...
grr...
fine.
benefit of the doubt. (hmph... and the fact that crunch is one of my favorites DOES NOT help at all.)
oh well. life sucks. at least he proved me wrong this time.
tonight, however, is of a different story. he better not ditch the rendezvous to get drunk with his friends or else...
it just sucks that i won't get to reinvent myself much now. no matter what i do, i'll still get sucked into the same world i was in highschool. grr. i want a chance to direct my own life. to establish a new image. to get where i want to in my own terms. hell, i'll probabaly still be chased by my "unwanted" identity...
ooh... the horror, the horror...
just please... i want to be my own person and not just somebody some girl used to know back in highschool or whatever.
"...and i am barely breathing, i can't find the air... don't know who i'm kidding, imagining you care... and i can't stand here waiting, a fool for another day... i don't suppose it's worth the price, the price i have to pay... and i'm thinking it over anyway...."
life's like this.
that's the way it is.
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